don't know

don't know how to react anymore, or what to say. asked to understand and accept something that is never explained. asked to keep doing something that is always turned down. asked to quit doing something only to be berated later for having stopped. offer unconditional friendship and love, only to be told there's nobody who cares.

a tiny vessel full of questions in a silent sea. must be a bad friend for being replaced so easily and quickly, for being second choice when not third or fourth. for being so easy to let down and leave aside without remorse or second thoughts.

i'll go back on the shelf now, gathering dust til next time you decide you need me.

wings

- we can have anything!

- no, we can't. we can aspire to anything, but we don't get it just because we want it... i'd rather spend my life close to the birds rather than waste it wishing i had wings...

one liner

i: [quizzical] "a.f.i.?"

n: [matter-of-factly] "a fire inside"

i: [puzzled] "i don't understand, how can you have a fire inside?"

a: [grinning] "that's because you only talk to her"

that's right.

i can stand to be humbled. i can stand to be hurt.

but i can't stand to be humiliated.